I don’t know when I established this, but for as long as I can remember my mentality has been to be all that I can be. That I would apply myself 3 times as hard as everyone. I don’t do this for glory. I don’t do this just because it’s in my blood, but mainly because as a human being with a stutter, people may assume that I can do so little. I won’t go too deep into that though. I accept myself, but some things you just carry in you.
Bottom line: Sometimes I don’t know when to say “no”. It can be tiring sometimes…very tiring.
I love being there for others and putting a smile on their faces. But I wonder, when is someone else going to step up to the plate? Some days I find myself yearning for a hug or for someone to just lend me their ear. I try not to come off as whiny, but when you feel a certain way, you feel a certain way. Often I step up to the plate because I know no else is going to. Is that presumptuous- no it’s just a sad truth I’ve come to realize.
Nothing that a little prayer can’t help, but can anyone else relate? I’d like to know.