Hello everyone. I must have written this intro over a couple times, but my last draft was a little too negative. That is not how I want to start out after not posting in a little while. Yesterday after sitting in at Superintendents time during church, I feel a lot better now after the frustration week I had had. During Superintendents time, Luz Gonzales, church member and nurse, discussed stress and its effects on one medically, mentally, and spiritually. This had to have been Christ speaking to me through her, because this past week I was reminded by myself of how easily irritated I can get. I look now at all the things I didn’t do and I could’ve have done to reduce my stress. Not once did I go to the gym to sweat off that worry. During those times I was frustrated I kept saying negative things about myself. Lastly, I barely meditated and allowed time for Christ to come in.Ms. Gonzalez was a real help also in pointing out scriptures that can be a good combat against stress, such as Matthew 11: 28, 29
“Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light”.
God only knows if I’m ever going to not worry the way I do, at least in this world. But I’m more blessed than I know to have all the advice and people in my life to reassure me when I’m facing things that seem like a mountain.
Speaking of blessed, Courtni and I have now been with each other for 15 months. A long time ago when I was a little younger I never could have imagined that I would ever make it this far with anyone. I don’t recall genuinely caring for anyone in this regard like I do ans looking much wisdom as I have. They say relationships have to be able to withstand the test of time and for both to grow along the way. I wholeheartedly agree. It’s quite a beautiful process.
Two weeks ago, we went out for dinner at Olive Garden. Since apartment life began I’ve had the desire to cook for Courtni to show her what I can do, but going out is just as fun. It certainly saves me a lot of head scratching about what to make. Funny thing about restaurants with Courtni is I am never able finish my meals. As we are figuring out what to eat and then eating, I seem more invested in just talking with her. Must be enjoying myself. Going further about talking, she is the only person who can get me to talk verbally on the phone with her every day. It’s a big deal to me because phone calls are not my favorite, with strangers in particular, because there is always that barrier with my speech. But this person doesn’t seem to mind it at all and actually wants to listen to me and let me take my time. Trippy ain’t it? Just kidding. I got a good one.
(Below: some highlights of our time)
(above: August 2019
(Above June 12, 2019)
(Above: May 27, 2019)
(Above: October 7, 2018)
On September 14, I hosted my first social gathering at my place. It was nothing big. I just invited a couple of my friends who I worship with and work with in church. We had game night. The highlight of our get together was definitely playing this board game I had bought just for the occasion- Quelf. Though it’s a game appropriate enough for all ages free of anything scandalous, it is definitely a wacky game that as the instructions say, “keep you on your feet”. You could end up wrapping yourself in toilet paper, forced to yodel, spin around with your eyes closed a couple times, or end everything sentence with the word izzle.
After giving it much consideration, I have decided that I want to embark on the path of Master Guide , a leadership position and the highest level within the Pathfinder program . I am not wanting to doing this for recognition. I’m wanting to do it because I think it will be a good spiritual journey. A chance for me to grow more in Christ. Also I want to take a crack at this is because I think it is important to minister to the youth, so they can have the necessary guidance and tools they need as they come of age. I’m so glad that I raised in the eyes of God. There are many requirements that have to be met, which include having or obtaining certain honors; reading certain spiritual literature; and discovering and refreshing myself on the church’s beliefs, etc. It would probably take at least a year of commitment to accomplish it all, and the maximum time to spend on this is three years. But With the 3 P’s I live by (prayer, patience, perseverance), and guidance from my director; church family; and Christ above all, I believe I can do it.
(Me in my uniform)
(Image of Pathfinder Master Guides. Image not owned by me)
I am on again off again with my creative writing. I have two ideas in my head that I have been able put to paper. I’ve been feeling really old fashioned have opted more to write with pencil and paper rather than going to my phone or computer. Something about physically holding what you create makes it seem all the more person and real. Any other writers feel the same way?
I’m still enjoying my apartment. I don’t believe one is ever quite finished furnishing up their home. You just keep adding on little by little every day or so. The atmosphere I’m going for is a Christian and positive vibe. You can tell by what I have on my walls, tables, and bookshelf. I think my favorite so far is the white canvas with multicolored words, which reads Think positivity; lessons activity; play more; be yourself; smile always; love passionately; live freely; work hard; shine bright; dream big; relax often; enjoy yourself. I’m starting to notice Christmas decorations already popping up in the stores, and I cannot wait to decorate my place for the holidays.
Believe it or not I’m actually enjoying cleaning now. I don’t mind tasks such as scrubbing pots and pans, spraying down my tub, and sweeping my floors. With the sun peeking through my blinds; my diffuser spewing like a steaming volcano; and some good old music filling my home; cleaning is dare I say it almost a pleasure. We’ll see if I feel the same way in the future when I’m no longer living alone again.
Thanks for stopping by. I’ll try to get back to posting each week. I love you all. God Bless.