Hey guys. My apologies for a bit of my absence. I ducked out of doing this topic the other night because I talked about it for so long in the past. But tonight I feel compelled to share as a way to encourage others who are going through something like what I went through. I won’t mention any names, because I’m not the type to slander anybody. Something I overcame was a depression.
A long time ago, during a college semester, I experienced perhaps the lowest point in my life. I fell into depression over someone I was no longer close with. I felt down, and I even thought I was losing my mind. It didn’t help that I had to see this person around almost everyday. As I slept at night, I was pestered by so many dreams that a dreamcatcher would have overflowed. The dreams weren’t frightening, but constantly having images in your head almost every week about the same thing makes you almost dread shutting your eyes. I wanted it to stop. During this time, a few of my grades slipped because my mind wasn’t 100 percent where it should have been. Thankfully I was passing enough to move forward to the next semester.
I talked my parents and a few others to death about how I was feeling, Looking back, I’m sure more than once they thought, Just let it go. Move on with your life. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to get better, I just didn’t know how.
I tried my best to be happy, but I couldn’t stay in a good mood for too long. The only best things I had going on at tha time were God; books; and my English class, where I discovered the phrase, “Be Well. Groovy” from a professor who loved to stand on tables. Interesting professor. After a few months of unchanged results, I decided nothing I was doing was working and that I needed help. That help came in the form of a campus counselor.
That first visit, I was wondering how much I should talk about. After all I had never been one to carry a full conversation with a total stranger, let alone share my pain with just anyone. But it wasn’t bad at all. He was kind, as well as patient with me. He diagnosed that my level of depression was like a light switch constantly being flipped on and off. It was enough that it had to be seriously taken dealt with
For about a month, I sat with the counselor once week in his office. He would ask his questions. I would answer them. He scribbled away at his clipboard, and I wondered if he was catching all of my story. Somewhere around early December, as the the sessions came to an end, I was feeling a lot better.
One of the things which attributed to my depression was anger. Despising someone or holding grudges is easier than forgiving and moving on. But letting go helps you moreso than the other person. I was encouraged by my counselor to pray for who I was upset with. Looking back I think about how much energy I wasted being angry. How much energy do you waste focusing on loathing someone who wronged you? Instead you can be aiming that energy towards something more positive like getting good grades, making new friends, or planning your future.
If you are ever going through a depression, these are the things I recommend to help you overcome it.
- Admit that you are not happy.
- Identify why you are depressed.
- Surround yourself with people who care about you.
- Seek help.
- Pray continuously.
- Do what makes you happy.
Thank you for reading. To those going through a depression over anything, I pray that Christ pulls you out of it and raises your spirit. God bless.