Can’t Say “no”

I don’t know when I established this, but for as long as I can remember my mentality has been to be all that I can be. That I would apply myself 3 times as hard as everyone. I don’t do this for glory. I don’t do this just because it’s in my blood, but mainly because as a human being with a stutter, people may assume that I can do so little. I won’t go too deep into that though. I accept myself, but some things you just carry in you.

Bottom line: Sometimes I don’t know when to say “no”. It can be tiring sometimes…very tiring.

I love being there for others and putting a smile on their faces. But I wonder, when is someone else going to step up to the plate? Some days I find myself yearning for a hug or for someone to just lend me their ear. I try not to come off as whiny, but when you feel a certain way, you feel a certain way. Often I step up to the plate because I know no else is going to. Is that presumptuous- no it’s just a sad truth I’ve come to realize.

Nothing that a little prayer can’t help, but can anyone else relate? I’d like to know.

By David Harris

I was born on January 31, 1992. I graduated from Austin Peay State University in December 2015 with a B.S. My major was Communications, with a concentration in Print & Web Journalism. My minor was English, with a concentration in Creative Writing. Writing is my passion. I’m a book lover. I prefer to to be called a Booklion rather than a bookworm. Why- lions are mightier.
My first love is Jesus Christ. I was raised in the Seventh-Day Adventist Church. No we are not a cult. We are Christians who worship on Saturday.
I have been stuttering since I was four, but through Christ I have persevered through it and will continue to do so. I’m not thing with Him.
Singing is another passion of mine. God blessed with me with the gift of song, which I am grateful for.

4 replies on “Can’t Say “no””

Dear David, I know the feeling. I’ve been the person everyone goes for everything my whole life. It’s rewarding but such a burden. I’ve always been a perfectionist as well and that can definitely kick your butt. You need to slow down and to let people know you need support too. You have feelings and needs as well. I can imagine how much the stuttering issue affects you, but I need to tell you that you are just as good and as capable as anyone. It doesn’t define you. I know you don’t suffer from any mental health issues, but you’re welcome to join my new group of you want a safe place where you can talk to people, vent, complain, get support. No judgment ever. Hugs, friend.

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