As Robert Englund once said in his notorious role as the Springwood Slasher Freddy Kruegar, “So you are afraid of something after all”.
Bees & Wasps
I see one of these pesky little suckers and I dodge and weave like I’m avoiding the blows of Mike Tyson or Muhammad Ali. I know their intent isn’t to sting just for the sheer thrill of it, but one scarring experience as little kid whengrabbing one on a jungle Jim was enough to make me avoid them at all cost.
I have proven time and again that I can talk in front of crowds, but it’s not something that I like to do too much of. I wasn’t blessed with the gift of gab like my father was. Having all eyes on me as I’m doing something I’m not very strong at feels like a thousand guns pointed at me. I can give feedback during discussions, take part in conversations, but I always get butterflies before and during speeches/ presentations. I guess it depends on how I’m feeling.
The last time I gave a presentation was in my Technical writing class, during my college senior year. As suggested by my professor Dr. Wadia, I asked one of my classmates to assist me in only speaking some of my presentation, while I spoke most of it. It was my closest peer Etenia who happily assisted me. We decided who would say what prior, and she encouraged me as I rehearsed what I was going to say ahead of time. Thinking about what I wanted to say was what I think helped me the most. Also, I was felt comfortable knowing that I had another voice to my advantage. Surprisingly, the presentation went really well. I didn’t stutter a whole lot, and when I did I took a breath; relaxed; and let the words flow like a gentle breeze rather than a strong wing. I guess it’s not as bad as I make it out to be sometime.
If I’m going to talk to someone verbally I prefer to do it face to face. I prefer it this way so I can see who I’m talking to, catch facial expressions, and catch the body language of the listener. If I’m talking on the phone, moreso with someone I don’t know, I get worked up because I can’t see who I’m talking to. I stutter more during phone conversations if it’s some unknown number hitting me up on my cellphone. How did you get my number in the first place? Why are you asking if I want to further my studies? I told you before, I’M DONE WITH SCHOOL. If I’m expecting the call; have some idea of who I’m talking to; and rehearse what I want to say, then my speech is under control.
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